Monday, April 30, 2007

the end of a road.

i am home tomorrow.

and i never knew that i would be prepared to finish. it is the perfect timing.
and now i will embrace azusa like i never knew i wanted to.

processing will come later.

and as i told the E. Riders tonight,
Thank you to the Equality Ride and to my friends for teaching me the meaning of audacious faith.

in God, in humanity, in peace and love and justice and truth.
For believing we can make a difference.

this is the end of a ride, but its not the end of this year yet. My blog will begin again in the next few weeks as i prepare and send off to Bolivia from June 4, 2007 until November 5, 2007.

soy cheese and pieces of peace

I'm finding the places in my heart i had forgotten about, or perhaps, simply never thought could be reconciled together.

The Equality Ride has drawn to an end, and cruelly, the pace didn't allow for me to continue blogging through the last month. and i'm not quite ready to recount it all right now in this peaceful place.

I ordered a vegan pizza with bell pepper, broccoli, and delicious soy cheese. i have music singing my peace and i'm ready to share pieces of me that have been discovered on this trip. and oh what a trip it was.

Do you know what I love? Hope. and though after 2 months of some of the most brutalizing conversation and treatment my hope has never been better founded. Why? because i could no longer allow it to simply float around; a nice idea that things might be ok because...well, i wanted them so.

Now i'm taking time and soaking in silence to hear the things inside of me and out that i haven't because of our pace. I realize how much i craved quiet. And now i'm remembering the things i am interested in, that i hope for, and that are lovely.

The new monasticism, the catholic worker, intentional communities, gardening, the organization Word and World.

When I think on these things i feel peace and joy and that solid tangible hope for the world. I see God and Gods people. and i like it.

I will be home in mere moments, and I am ready to be there.